Sorry, that was unintentionally a long break from blogging.
Crazy how life gets in the way sometimes and days slip quietly (or loudly
depending on your circumstances) by. And just FYI one of these wonderful men in
my life is the 14 year old I mention later. Just sayin.
I’ve been very introspective lately. As some of you know, I
quit selling Real Estate. Totally long and involved story that if you are
really interested in you can email me, or better yet call! Right now I am
trusting God to do what He knows is best in my life. For the most part being
home is good. I am looking for a job, but one that fits my families schedule
and needs.
So in my introspection I have decided to participate in Lent
this year. This is not something I have ever done before. To be honest I only noticed it because I’d
hear about Fat Tuesday and see my Catholic friends walking around with ashes on
their foreheads. This year though God pointed it out early, and nudged me
towards giving something up to remind me of Christ’s sacrifice. The nail in the
coffin so to speak was when a friend emailed me on Monday and mentioned for the
first time she was feeling the nudge to participate too.
I know the goal isn’t to give up something that EQUALS the
sacrifice of Christ that just isn’t humanly possible. I have fasted before so I
know I could give up something so
that when I wanted that thing I could reflect on Jesus sacrifice. But my heart
was drawn to finding something that was more about my relationship with Jesus. So I gave up daytime TV. Now don’t go jumping
to conclusions about what my daytime TV habits were. I’m terrified of what you
are thinking so notice I’m scrambling to make sure you understand. I tend to
turn the TV on in the morning after I have made lunches for everyone. The bus
comes at 6:50 am and it passes the house to turn around at the end of the road
and come back to pick the kids up. When I sit to watch for the bus, I turn the
morning news on, and mostly it stays on after that if I am home. Good Morning
America, Food Network, HGTV, etc. I like to have the noise on and periodically
I will hear or see something interesting and sit to watch for a while. There
have been days since I quit going to an office that I get sucked into whatever
happens to be on and I tune back into my day only after a half an hour or more
has slipped by.
Every so often I have to sit my kids down and reestablish
rules and boundaries that have slipped around the house. I did this Sunday
night after having found NINE towels
in a certain 14 year olds room that didn’t make it down to the laundry room
like they were supposed to. NINE!! Seriously……………………
I feel like that is what God is doing for me. He is reestablishing those
boundaries for our relationship that I have let slide. So I have committed to
keep the TV off during the day. Instead of being unintentionally sucked into
the world, I want to be sucked into His word while time slips by. The result of
the silence so far seems to emphasize the fact that I was unintentionally
drowning God out.
